The feeling of betrayal…
One’s feeling is something so mysterious and yet so real. One’s relationship with one another carried the same theory. While I am sitting in front of computer and think back about what had happened these past weeks, nothing really come up but the feeling of betrayal…
Finally at this point of my life, I truly understand the saying of “You’ll only find your true friends in time of hardship. Those who stick with you when you still have usable value and/or at the peak of your life may not be your true friends.” I learn it now and I learn it the hard way. That feeling of betrayal is much more than angers and disappointments. I really thought that I would kick and scream but for all the honest reasons, none of that came to me. I felt no angers or disappointments or resentments. But the one feeling that I dread most did surface at full force: betrayal.
It was at that point of you really don’t want anything else to do with the person now or for the rest of your life. Is that the true meaning of “forgiven but not forgotten”? Perhaps. Can relationship that has been build twenty some odd years be comparable with that of one and half years? Perhaps. That’s probably be one answer that it will take me years to figure out why.
Feeling is fragile but then so is relationship. You might have the ability to try to hold on to it for that long but at one point along the road it will break and that’s probably the worst, especially if you are that person who has invert personality. I like to compare one’s relationship with others to a rubber band. No one is perfect, thus I can try to hold and pull the rubber band for so long. But at point of life, too much disappointments and betrayals, and my rubber band will snap. Unfortunately, that’s will also mean the end of that relationship – regardless of the nature of that relationship… Is it a bad thing? Maybe yes, maybe not at all…
新年快乐! Happy Chinese ‘Niu’ Year
For those who celebrate the Lunar New Year: Happy New Year!
May the Ox year bring lots of luck, and prosperity with the best of health for all of us!
祝大家 心想事成， 步步高升， 万事如意，年年有余，富星高照， 恭喜发财! 新年快 乐!
Square Pegs (戆夫成龙)
I wrote the review half way back in ‘08. Finally able to finish it… So, here it is! Let me know if you have any comments.
ps: all TVB reviews will be on the right panel under “TVB reviews”
The New President of United States
It is official as in 12:00 pm EST today. Barrack Obama IS now the President!
Nope, I didn’t go to D.C. for the inauguration ceremony. I am just one of the millions people who tuned in front of the television to see history in making. It really didn’t matter whether you are braving the cold at D.C. or warmed at home or even 1/2 globe away, you still can feel the enthusiasm for this new president and his family..
Well, congratulations, Mr. President! Hopefully everything will head to a better path under your presidency.
Life can be very stressful
Don’t even know where to start! You know, sometimes you plan one thing, you get something else. When you don’t plan, there it is in front of your door.
As a student, you worried if you can get good grade. After graduating, you scream “YAY!” and you rack your brain to find a job. Seriously don’t want anyone give you that you-are-graduated-but-not-working looks. Very stressful! Trust me on that! On the economy these days, don’t care if you actually hated the job, you are seriously lucky if you have a job now.
2009 doesn’t started very well for me. I got into accident first Monday of the year. That’s one way to start new year! All the stressful of dealing with repairs and insurances really get to me these past few days. Add to that a little bit of guilt I suppose. While I am not at fault in the accident, the car did need repair because of me and the car is not even mine. Add all that up then you will come up with a very stressful me.I want to vent but to whom, I want to scream out loud but at where…. My shoulder is suddenly feel so heavy. How I wish I was on different route that Monday morning. How I wish I followed my initial plan to leave house earlier. How I wish…… So many wishes….. but what had already happened can not be change……………..
Singapore SBC/TCS/MediaCorp Reviews
It is already the 3rd day of 2009. How is everyone New Year Celebration? Pass that we will all be getting ready for the first Monday in 2009…. Hopefully things will go much smoother in the new year!
That aside, I really need to find more time to update my blog. Now that I finally graduate from my Masters degree (YAY!!), I hope I can find more time to do so.
Since I am not currently watching any TVB serials, my reviews’ section will switch gear to Singapore drama reviews. For those who familiar with S’pore serial will understand why my post titled “SBC/TCS/Mediacorp”. For those who don’t, the short explanation is Singapore broadcasting company had change its name 3 times. Prior to 1994, it was SBC (Singapore Broadcasting Center). 1994 – 2001, it was TCS (Television Corporation of Singapore) and from 2001 to present day is MediaCorp. Thus, my reviews will span between these three era.
Generally speaking, my “root” of drama started with SBC’s production of “Good Morning, Sir!”, starring Chen Li Ping and Li Nanxing, back in late 80’s.From then on, S’pore productions had always been 1st priority compared to TVB or any other countries’ production. Even to this day, any MediaCorp productions will has my 1st attention before I move on to another drama, especially if the casts included my favorite actors and/or veteran actors/actress of the 90’s.
When it comes to reviews though, it is natural that I have more drama serials’ collections which I can write about. So for the next half of 2009, I will most probably write more MediaCorp’s reviews than TVB’s reviews. As on which S’pore reviews will I write, I really don’t have schedule planned. Alice had ask me for 1994’s “The Magnate” (casts: Li Nanxing, Ivy Lee, Chan Hanwei, and Cassandra See)…. Alice, I will try my best. 
